Today I have learned that relationships are extremely hard work. I know that they say that relationships are work but man they weren’t kidding! I have had a few arguments with my girlfriend and man let’s just say it’s tough to not to want to give up. I just feel like I will have to buck up and keep fighting it out because I do want to be with her. Even though I want to say f her and f this relationship. I will hang in there because I feel like she can help me for the better. So other than the issues popping up that’s really not much else to it than that. 

Why do relationships have to be so damn hard? I mean they have to endure some serious stuff, and you have to be a strong person not to give up on something that you want so bad. I admit I always didn’t think like this. I was the person to just walk away when things got hard. I did it in my past and I really don’t want to do it this time. She has opened up a new way of thinking for me, it’s a positive mind set that she has opened up. It has come in handy and I am actually giving it a shot. I am also going to work threw my difficult issues. That’s one of the reason’s I am back on blogging. Even if xanga is in the middle of a change. Blogging should help me with some stuff I am going to be working threw. So this should be real fun as I use this blog to help me threw some issues past and present. I hope your all ready this should be a fun ride for all those who are going to be reading this epic tale of my life past present and future…

Hey people! Today has been a AWESOME day! Things went well and I am grateful that every thing went so smooth. Only thing I can say that could be better is that I was supposed to be on vacation this week and I am not, the company screwed up my paid time off!! I am so frustrated but that is another blog for another day. I just worked and went to church, and church was awesome. today’s message really was a great one. It will help me this week as I face work. Other than work and church not much else happened. Oh I didn’t have to deal with the little pretentious little fuck today so that was another bonus! Today was a very chill day and it was laid back, defiantly my kind of day. I will have to keep you up to date with the pretentious little fuck or a  s he will be called in future post PLF (to minimize the use of the F Bomb!).

I have to work with PLF a lot this week so this will be trying for me but I be strong and make the best of a bad situation. So it will be a great week I just have to remember positive thinking will help me get threw the week. Other than that there is really nothing else that I have for this evening so until tomorrow.. Later!

As the title says, today I was yelled at by a young pretentious FUCK! It was funny but it lightweight pissed me off. I really didn’t care that I got yelled at because I really just ignore all the rubbish that comes out his mouth, it was the fact that he talked to me like crap. There is a certain way that you should talk to people, I don’t care young or old but there is a certain way that ALL people should talk to one another #justsaying. Although this is not my first one in with this little fuck, oh did I mention that I am older than him and his my boss? Well yea he is my boss and I am older than him. He is barely legal to drink and I am almost 30. I really can not stand him, glad I just ignore the crap he says.

I did come up with a idea though just to get back at him in a non violent way.. the power of silence! I think that will work the best, because if I don’t laugh at your jokes or if I don’t speak to you, you should definitely get the point of me not wanting to have anything to do with you. Makes sense right? We will see how this works this coming week.. I do have to close with him this coming week three nights (yippie!) I will defiantly have to come back tomorrow and tell you more about the little pretentious fuck. I am getting sleepy now and there is way to much to type tonight, so I will be back tomorrow for sure. Oh before I go I thought about getting another fish.. that’s another story for another day. Until tomorrow ladies and gents.. GOODNIGHT! 

Okay so maybe I was a little premature in saying that their was no such thing is love because I did find someone. So yes perhaps just PERHAPS I was a tad premature. I found a beautiful woman who is a intellectual like myself and I have gotten to know her on such a deeper level. I really think this could be the one for me. I don’t wanna use the L word quickly so I will take it slowly I just don’t know if it would be wise if I rushed it, but all thoughts contain her.. And She has me feeling SUPER POETIC!!! AHHH I love it! This could be the “one” but yes.. perhaps I was a little early in saying that there was no such thing as love.. PERHAPS!

I must say that I really don’t believe in love. Love is for the birds. I son’t see the point, all love leads to is heartache.. I really want to just not to be in love. I just want to be by myself. I have been hurt so many times and I really don’t care anymore. I can say for once in my life I meet a female who was here were I live and we spent some months dating but it didn’t work out. I think honestly I will ever find love. I really don’t care anymore I just don’t see the damn point. I am over love and females. I will just be with myself.. At least I know I will never leave me. Right? Ugh.. it’s so frustrating.. I really would rather just be alone than get hurt again. Until I find a female that loves me for me and accepts all of my quirks I will be alone and that is just fine with me #justsaying